Archive for February, 2016

…*crickets*…

Monday, February 29th, 2016

I feel like every time I open up WordPress to write a blog post… my mind goes blank. I have no idea what to say that doesn’t sound self-pitying and whiny.

Life is testing me right now. I don’t know why, but it is. I suppose there’s some sort of lesson I’m supposed to learn. I wish there was a way to get an explicit sign of some sort. A big neon arrow that says, “Yup. This is it. This. Make *this* different in your life, and everything will get better.”

Nothing is that easy. If it was, everyone would do it, and the world would be a happy place, full of unicorns and rainbows.

Yeah. Something like that.

Where Did It All Go?

Monday, February 22nd, 2016

Was life once really that carefree? That easy? That untainted by fear and anger and illness and stress?

It doesn’t seem possible.

Maybe all those things were there after all, and it was just easier to ignore them; pretend the cries and howls were nothing more than the wind, the shrieks and barks nothing more than the branches knocking against the window.

I have no idea what to do with myself. I think I have forgotten how to create.