Archive for July, 2014

Ball ‘O Stress

Thursday, July 31st, 2014

I wish I was one of those people who can harness stress and anxiety in their lives and put it toward something productive.

Instead, I want to curl up in a ball on my couch and eat junk food. I am, too, fully aware that following such path is a bad idea — for my weight and my sanity — so I am trying to force myself to be like my ideal and do the opposite.

I have so much anxious and nervous energy in me right now that, if I could harness it, I’m sure I could do a hundred different tasks around the house today alone. But as it stands, I’m caught in this loop of aborted-starts and highs and lows — and I can’t quite convince myself to focus my brain elsewhere.

It’s probably time to remember Tim Allen’s character’s quote from Galaxy Quest — Never give up, never surrender! — and just continue trying to put one foot in front of the other.

Even Harder

Wednesday, July 30th, 2014

You know that thing I mentioned before about swirling maelstroms?

Yeah.

The thing we don’t always realize — or expect — is that those storms usually get worse before they get better.

I have to say I’m so freakin’ tired of hanging on with my fingernails. Let the storm break. Please?