Archive for the 'Creativity' Category

Where Did It All Go?

Monday, February 22nd, 2016

Was life once really that carefree? That easy? That untainted by fear and anger and illness and stress?

It doesn’t seem possible.

Maybe all those things were there after all, and it was just easier to ignore them; pretend the cries and howls were nothing more than the wind, the shrieks and barks nothing more than the branches knocking against the window.

I have no idea what to do with myself. I think I have forgotten how to create.

I Am Alive

Thursday, November 12th, 2015

Despite rumours to the contrary.

Wow. Have I really not blogged since, like, September?

Man, I suck.

I have to admit, Gentle Readers, that ol’ Kris’ creative life has been frozen in a soul-sucking vortex that is not allowing for any new and wonderful words to flow from her fingertips. :(

Not only has my real life been ridiculously busy with work, there have been numerous health issues — of both the physical and mental — affecting clan Starr. To tell you the truth, folks, there are days when it’s all I can do to just hold on with my very fingertips.

It’s frustrating as fuck to see your offspring suffering and not be able to do a damn thing about it. I think I’ve cried more tears in the last few weeks than I have in the last few years put together.

So. I want to get back on that yarn-spinning bicycle, but pain, frustration, anger, and exhaustion hold me back. And, to put it coldly and bluntly, more royalty cheques would be awfully nice, too. But you don’t get paid if you don’t write anything. Damn that conundrum.

I sincerely and truly hope that one of these days I will have the energy and enthusiasm for putting something down on-screen. As hard and as stressful as writing can be, I miss the joy of creating, of telling tales, and playing God a little bit. I promise you I’ll get something out there sooner, rather than later.

Maybe simply for my own sanity’s sake.

Success!

Saturday, January 24th, 2015

Okay, so here’s the scoop — no reading tonight, BUT… I finished my short story! Yee-haw!

I’ve saved it and put it away for now. I will try and reread it sometime over the weekend and tweak it, and after that, post it here on the blog.

*happy Snoopy dance*

Oh, and at the risk of being totally vague and mysterious, Adam Levine is a GOD. Yeeeeees.

One Step Forward…

Wednesday, January 21st, 2015

Didn’t read last night. Nope.

But… I wrote! Added another 500+ words to the short story I started. I call it progress, Gentle Readers!

No idea when I’ll be able to post it — I think I still have a ways to go — but I’ll put it up when I can. I don’t think I’ll be able to do the “story a week” challenge. I mean, it’s been, what, three weeks of January already, and I haven’t finished a short story yet?

It’s okay. I’m trying my damnedest to not beat myself up about it. At least I’m writing again, and that’s the very most important part.

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Poem: “Like as the waves make towards the pebbled shore” by William Shakespeare
Short Story: “Crush” by Bonnie Burnard (The Penguin Anthology… etc.)
Essay: “The Hunting of Billie Holiday” by Johann Hari (Politico Magazine)

Brand Spankin’ New

Wednesday, January 1st, 2014

…year, that is.

Welcome to 2014! I was trying to decide where I could write down my Resolutions for this New Year and figured that this blog was the best place. My experience with resolutions is that I’m generally hit or miss with them, but the good intentions are there. I figure the answer is to not have *too* many so that you become overwhelmed by them and give up entirely. At least, that’s the story I’m going with.

So without further ado, here are my Resolutions for 2014 (in no particular order of importance):

  1. Write. More. Lots more. I think that’s self-explanatory.
  2. Exercise. Entirely too sedentary. It’s time to get the ol’ blood pumping again.
  3. Declutter and organize. I have to remind myself to just do this one small task at a time, or else it just seems too overwhelming and frustrating and I feel like giving up before I’ve gotten anywhere.
  4. Read. Reading for pleasure has fallen to the bottom of the “ways to spend time” list and I don’t like that. Reading a lot helps spark creativity and fuels writing. It’s important. I want to aim for one or two books a month, minimum. I first wanted to say one book a week, but I’m pretty sure that’s beyond my free time quotient right now. Who knows? I might surprise myself… I will keep track of these books somewhere, too.

I could probably come up with a bunch more, but I think it probably best to quit while I’m ahead. Don’t want to overwhelm myself before I even get started!

So here’s to a challenging, exciting, fun-filled New Year! May it bring only the best things to your doorstep!

Hello, Cleveland!

Wednesday, September 25th, 2013

You know that feeling you sometimes get, as though you’re talking to an empty arena?

Yeah, that.

That’s okay. I’ll survive if I’m just talking to myself around here. I’ll just try not to answer myself.

*sigh*

Anyway. I have nooz. Progress is happening on this novella. I’ve got over 5K words written so far. The maximum word count is 20K, so I’m anywhere from one-third to one-quarter done. Yanno, it doesn’t seem so bad when you look at it like that. I have to do a little planning work, though. I need to figure out how many chapters I’m gonna have, and therefore how many words in each chapter. I think I should do that tonight before I get too much farther into this story and need to make some dramatic changes. Sounds like a plan, don’t you think? I agree.

In one way, I’m glad to see the word count rising. And it feels like it’s climbing reasonably quickly (for me, at least). This inspires me with more than a little confidence. I can get this novella done and get started on another one. Momentum is good. Momentum is important. I have to stay on this roll until it becomes habit. Must, must, must.

Anyway. I am about to switch from “writer” mode to “mom” mode. Wish me luck. :P

Sew What?

Sunday, September 22nd, 2013

I was able to dip into my well of creativity today. (And no, that’s not some weird euphemism; get your mind out of the gutter!) I got to spend some time at my sewing machine. I did a bunch of work on a pair of flannel pajamas I started making for the Little Miss many months ago.

My biggest fear is that now they won’t fit. I cut the pieces of material ages ago and I know she’s grown since then. But anyway.

It was nice to sit there and make something with my own two hands again. Maybe I can tackle some of the other projects I’ve got kicking around. There are way too many to list; and really, a goodly number are quick and easy ones (at least, they should be…) that I can hopefully complete in an hour or two.

But. Moving right along. It made the day move along quite quickly, and brought my spirits back up after a morning filled with kidlet angst and arguing. And I put Netflix on on the TV and watched a couple of episodes of Glee while I was at it. (Technically “re-watched”, because I’ve seen all of these before, but I love the show so it doesn’t matter!)

I have a little bit more left to go on the jammies and then I’ll move on to something else, plus pounding out that next novella. The fun never ends!

Eureka!*

Monday, September 16th, 2013

*I have found it!

And yes, indeedy, I did. After several days of searching high and low, I discovered the notebook in the Offspring’s bedroom. And frankly, this makes sense because the book itself was one of hers from school from several years ago, and her name is written on the front cover. It’s only logical, then, that B.E. put the notebook in HER room when tidying up.

Yeah.

I know, I suppose it’s somewhat anticlimactic, but whaddaya gonna do? It’s a small thing, but in the grand scheme of things, it helps a lot.

I guess this means now I really have to sit down and write the damn novella, huh?

Don’t answer; I already know what you were going to say. Carry on.

Damnation!

Wednesday, September 11th, 2013

I have lost a notebook.

Not just any notebook, but one which contains various notes and character information for a story that I am supposed to be working on. I am lost without this notebook. I can’t remember any of the details that I jotted down, with the single possible exception that I think I named my heroine Eloise Soleil (no clue on the last name). It was a name chosen purposely. Same with the hero’s, which is also gone from me.

I rail at the universe, but it’s my own damn fault for not putting this notebook safely away before I buggered off from home for three weeks. I’d better damn well learn my lesson from this, and figure out a single, key location for any of my business or writing materials. Yes, I do have a room that was initially my office, but the addition of Ms. Junior Peanut effectively relocated me to the living/dining room. Which, frankly, ain’t no place to seriously work. :(

I hope I find it sooner rather than later, but I fear I shall stumble on it just as the deadline for this particular novella rushes by.

Crapola.

Have A Nice Trip, See You In The…Fall?

Sunday, September 1st, 2013

So, Gentle Readers, I have spent some time gallivanting around Europe (tra-la, tra-la!) and am now back in my humble abode.

It was an exciting, eventful August, and I am torn between wishing that it hadn’t ended and rather glad that it is over. But I suppose how I feel doesn’t really matter. Time marches on, and now we have to look forward at what’s to come.

School begins in a few days for the Offspring, and with that, the regular autumn “routine” of lessons, practices, homework and busy-ness. In that same vein, it means time for me to buckle down and get back to work. There’s a deadline looming for another Bat Collective anthology, and I want a story in it. If that means the use of handcuffs and a whip on the muse (to quote the brilliant George Takei, “Oh, myyyyyy…” Heh.), then so be it.

After that, there are a couple of ideas on the burner to get going on. I’d like one more sale this year, anyway, if I can manage it. More than one would be the whipped cream and cherry on top. (Double heh.)

Do you have any plans for this fall? It’s “new beginning” time for me, and there are too many things that have been in my “need to do this someday” pile that it’s time to start tackling them. So here’s to all of us! Much success and productivity as we wave goodbye to the lazy, hazy days of summer and stare the cooling temperatures and changing leaves in the eye. Let’s get at it!